Back Of Book.

 

Tailored to a sensation that we all have a mission. The rocket man flies to the moon and then mars… What is our next “big step” or leap for “Human Kind”?

 

I flew, I felt, I was baffled by the sight. I am and was left speechless. A buffoon marooned on his moon. Tailored to a search for that ___. Their is meaning their has to be… What is a chemist, an alchemist of Pb, to be… Cum.

 

Only for What? A screen or a chemical imbalance.

This is where You and Eye share a reflection of ours in that fostered light staying up all night… Talking. Eternity in yours must be shared in mine. Will it? Is it what we thought? Could I love my self let alone… Tailored to a feeling… Swift is forever. Never quick only if you blink.

 

Fist page 

 

"My index is hers. Mrs Science has to share the light for she comes first.”

-Ai E.

 

The Love was, no… There is something; I could, no I am feeling “it”. What ever this is? I feel comfortably alone.

 

Rhymes came easily with out the need to be written or said the silence was music to my ear. Something was a bit more, and less didn’t exist. 

 

“It” was as if I didn’t care, it wasn’t the drugs… Although this chemist does not use rats… Even though I would rat on a soulless thief. Sheis: “she”, she is art. It, it, it, what is it?

 

To make, to meet, to see an angel that can not be touched by the hands of these undivine. I am human and she is something else. It, it, it, what is it?  

 

This isn’t what you think it is. They say the heart pumps and the brain follows in the beat, she say's I think way to much. I think she is a thief, who does her time eventually, maybe their is another side to her.

 

We all go to coughs and stuffed noses as long as she is pleased with the remedy I concoct. We all go...

 

HEY!

 

What?

 

I really don’t like it when she cuts me off... A thousand to the power of the same and this life never get old: with her. How long has it been? How many have we lived? Is this the end? Can she hear me when the sounds have yet to.

 

Who are you even talking too, are you still high? Always mumbling you say you need to teach yourself… I think you are crazy! Why is he always staring and never saying much. Why did I lie? maybe I didn't, maybe I am just not me right now? Who are we really tittles to a job that doesn't feel like home, a heart that isn't mine. My step sister always told me home is were the heart is... I think she is a stuck up bitch that stole my parents away from and probably will steal every one I love. Am I not even here? Maybe he left me in his apartment like my panties, after he stripped me of my innocence and will forgot all about it and me... What will happen when now is already part of the past. Clap your hands and see it! The sound effulgent as it echoes and the moment flees for a second you were and now that is isn't what it was. I love echoes, can he hear me? This bath tub is so uncomfortable! I swear that isn't a metaphor, but I can hear him through the door. The pound is shimmering and I Keep drifting into a fading trip, these are some powerful psychedelics: DMT, MDA, and LSD and the list goes on... How the fuck can one guy make so much?

 

Chemistry. Did she say something about drugs? I am a biopharmaceutical specialist... Who am I talking to?  I didn’t move my lips what is she talking about is she mad, oh wait we are both legally insane now... but is she mad that I couldn't open the door? I love my silence. Communication it takes two to unlock the gates to the bridge that bonds two. Especially if she has my key and is on the inside of my heart. I know it, I was staring into the pound... my lips didn't move. Telepathy does not exist.

 

No… Yes. I am, but right now I don’t know anything… If I am thinking this or saying it.

I am pretty sure I came down already.

 

Stop staring at me! You are making me feel self conscious. He is so silent. NEVER TALKING, only a mumble here and there...

 

You are gorgeous. Did you know that you are beautiful. She really is.

 

He is always smiling, is it the sweet air?

I thought I was more than?

 

She always pushes me, how to prove that special something I feel. Silence won’t “due" her justice.

 

You are more than beautiful. Words fail to depict the image you reflect. Words fail, they fail to grasp… they fail to describe the beauty that is you, that is with in you… Even mirrors lie! When they reveal only the surface of bent light… Illusions, Illusions, you are more than I thought you were.

 

Where did you go last night? 

 

Her voice is so sweet! No wonder she does what she does.

She stopped and began to cry…

 

I felt the warmth behind my back as if it accelerated every particle of my soul: SOMETHING THAT HAS TO BE PHYSICAL! We just don’t have the tools to measure it. By touch I feel hers as I grabbed her by the shoulders. straighten her posture gazed into her hazy blues. She blinked slowly and insecurely as if a day nightmare caught her minds eye. After she said night, it wasn’t fear inducing but loosing grip of reality while realizing another with a stranger could glimpse into a new light that bonds two like pikura or damns them like a falsified tattoo between toxic relationships. Effortlessly it was enjoyable; the duality of a voyage is paroles. 

 

She squinted like a fragile petal making it way from the soil into the rays and I felt the rain in the dry summer winds hotter than the desert of California. Tiers fell, how I wish they would never. Thunder sounded as she cried out I # ___# you#. Sublime, literally the clouds parted. My “soaken" dead threads of the reapers gift: woven cotton, they dried as if every fiber had become alive just… just to feel that heat of her passion and a cool breeze followed by the full sight of her... it is bliss to bask in her sunlight.

 

Eye’s closed, I’s became silent… Sentenced to a feeling. My eyes! 

Blinked it is the first time I noticed that… I didn’t want to lose even a blink not a wink if I could pry open my eyes to never lose her sight again… All it would have taken was her number and she would have never cried, but then she would have never told me how she felt. Time slowed down as I wet my face against her cheeks. I couldn’t press against her bones any tighter if not i’d make her bleed. Sad that she cried but happy that it wasn’t those kind of tears, now.

 

I could see it when I met her yesterday, technically today as she pressed her forearms against my back I wish I could relive it all; except for the part when I lost her… Literally. Drugs, drugs, drugs… I thought that was all that mattered to me.

 

Something we share in common but more than I thought the spark that lit our changa is the same one that lost a few moments of her pure sight what is a little of dissonance to make her essence effulgent?

 

When did it start? It felt like years I swear we lived three whole lives and I was chines for one of them. Reincarnation she believes in it, kind of… I don’t. The fe.. Don’t mention the last two letters unless ar has an ‘e’ is before the a: 'e’ar… I love how she listens and how we can disagree "two" agree. Always... Death! Death is scary? Especially when it is not that kind of poison when the ego dies with the body. Write? We don’t have ___ or anything, but we did feel like we were going to die for a little bit. 

 

HOLD ME TIGHTER!

 

I almost felt my spine snap as she screamed no need for exclamation points. I never thought I would like a koala so much.

 

I can read her mind it is what I felt that moment she disappeared. Even though she was right next to me then she wasn’t… Was the trip meant to be more than a vista to the other side?

 

As a scientist I object and claim this to a hallucination worth the lighter fuel, she begs to differ and it makes my heart flutter. Cold didn’t feel so… I love cheese but writing these words make my figures want to shoot them selfs in the figure nail. 

 

Where did you go?|

Read the authors note above.}

 

Love I just went to get some groceries 

 

How are the kids?

 

What? I turned and looked into the mirror… WHAT IS THAT A WRINKLE?

WHIT HAIR! a beard thats cool I dig that.

 

Are you okay honey? 

 

Love, Love, WHY! am I saying that who are you what is your name?

 

I don’t know if he is okay I did see him using his distiller this morning I’ll wait a couple of hours maybe he will come back I hate this sometimes… He doesn’t care about rats he just want to fly to the moon.

 

I turned to my left and their she was sitting on my couch again? Who is she?

 

I turned to my right and their he was… Wow who one a couch would be so soft. I can’t believe some one actually has DMT. I heard about it, never looked for it.

 

Thank god I went out tonight I usually hate that bar, church hill's pub. The bathroom is gross. Why am I thinking about that? Do I want to fuck him? What is his name?

 

Did we go to the same place, I got nervous as if she would see into my day dream.

Do I like her? We did dance it was fun… Love is more than a dance… It is both: physical and that of which receive the touch; mental!

 

Does she think I am an addict? Did she manipulate my trip… Dude it's all me.My trip is my own and her’s is hers. Remember Ai you are a scientist. 

The collective consciousness in a whole bunch of bullshit.

 

I had this weird trip that we fucked, I got pregnant and the baby cut my belly open…With curled nail!!! It was horror film worthy. Oh ya, oh ya! You were the doctor and had is devilish laughed…Then I laughed and then lighting striked you…

 

Let me guess I became Frankenstein. I though to myself did I laugh? sometimes I laugh… Tripping with a girl you don’t know… IS SHE UNDER AGE? They let in sixteen year olds… They shouldn’t do that.

 

NO! Let me finish. You died and I cried and you were suppose to father him or her, but then I realized that life comes and goes. No matter what I have to be strong and mother the next generation. When I came out I saw bubbles the bowl burned my pants though… These were my favorite pants.

 

Oh… Does she like me? Does she know anything about Freud. Does she realize what it could mean…

 

Does she know anything about Freud?

 

I am surprised she came back with so much. First timers just see gyroscopes and can’t explain it… That is what I get most of the times.

 

Oh… Does she like me? Does she know anything about Freud. Does she realize what it could mean…

 

Does she know anything about Freud?

 

Are you talking to me I can’t hear you? Do you mind if I pack another bowl? This pipe looks like a meth pipe?

 

Technically it is an essential oils pipe and N-Di”Meth”yltryptamine is a form of...

 

I like to dance.

 

What?

 

I swear you asked me what was I doing at that shitty bar.

 

I like that bar… I tilted my head and asked why did I let her in to my house. Oh ya she is hot, but I never chase and that is why I haven’t gotten laid in over three years.

 

You said that out load. Do you have Tourettes?

 

No I have taken a lot of Lysergic Acid Diethylamide and I say what is on my mind.

 

One time I tripped so hard alone that my furniture began laughing at me, then I stood up and said I can have a good time by my self and they all smiled. I guess I was self conscious about being alone and doing it by myself.

 

Thats cool… Do you think I go there often I don’t but I am glad I met you there!

 

She is totally talking about the free high she is getting but you know what I think she is listening… at least a little. Most than most do. What am I even think. More than most do.

 

Should we go out side?

 

Not with the crystals, I have some changa... But wait let me go and find some rue ! and I have pharmayahuasca: I condensed a DMT into a changa like substance, inside of rue powder combined with harmine, and LSA concentrates. I have ergot but it cost me out to get it so don’t ask unless you have time… Did you know time is money. Oh ya, oh ya wait for it I have cold tea to prep our bodies for a full experience. All of this is free but nothing comes free! I want your time… By the way what is your number?

 

I thought that purse looks nice I will accept donations as long as she doesn’t mention prices. Plus a friend would be nice. It has been a while since I danced with someone maybe I shouldn’t have gone into drug dealer mode…

 

I can give you what I have? What is ergot… My number? um What is your name?

 

My name, my name, my name… Is she a cop… I never sell I hate selling… Why can’t more people just make this stuff it isn’t so hard Acid then Base repeat until you get it RIGHT. That is it. It is not over night unless you have the right bark to that “bite”.

 

My name is Matias… I won’t tell her my real name.

 

Let me get you number first and here.

 

A hundred dollar bill? How rich is this girl? That is authentic Gucci, Gucci meng! Keep it one hundred. I am not holding back I can get my self one fifth of a pound of this stuff.. Even though I make my own acetone from limestone… All the vinegar I use, I rather just buy some acetone and some other chems too! Going on Chem spider tomorrow night fuck yeah. 

 

Thank you for this… do you like lsd? With my pharmayauscha and some cocaine?

 

I have molly ! and Yea but I have never tried LSD…

 

YES, YES, YES, and she is sharing what she’s got! fuck yes DUDE she is a catch.

 

How much MDMA with unknowns… Hopefully less unknowns and more PURE!

 

I have a little less than an eight ball, BUT this is my weekend so I can only share a gram for the both of us.

 

mmhh honest I like that… knows what she want and puts her foot down good I won’t push because when people do I always give… FUCK THAT. 

 

Thank you. .5, .5 it is. Light does of LSD before the T since it does not need that okay I am going to heat it up okay.

 

okay.

 

As he left I looked around and saw a lot of glass wear polished and clean. I took only one chemistry class but this guy has more than my catholic school does.

 

BY THE WAY I AM EIGHTEEN!

 

Did she hear me? I think she did how much did she hear… I don’t even have condoms… Plus i hate those things I rather die than wear one of those plastic bags around my nature. That is why Leo Baekeland’s head died from a cerebral hemorrhage. Latex industrialized...

 

Mother fucker… I can't believe he said that and didn’t even ask me… He mumbles a lot it is hard to hear him. What concerns me is when… well most of the time he is quite. Just looking at me as if I were a photograph. Thank god he has abs I felt all six and two more were forming he pulled away when I reached his belt and kissed me with his nose I puckered up and then he started talking about drugs. I love that so I returned the favor. We both like the same things and he is as robustious, and strange as I am.

 

I love that picture of Einstein it is really trippy. Is that an acid tab on his mouth? When I get closer to it… Oh my good he glued an acid tab to his tung. I spun and the lights carried in lines shapes, lines they shimmered of that matter that surrounded me and wrapped the curves that made my figure wow I feel nice as slim as an hour glass.

 

She is hot, I better find that fucking dropper last thing I want to do is turn her into a witch because of a bad trip.

 

My clothing, my clothing I _love_ it! I want some one warm. My skin it feels hot like beach sand under the fun. I want his touch, I will have him needing a towel. Wait if I jump he may not want more… Who want a whore, this guy could be more than a warm gun. Plus his taste and this... This coffee table is it mahogany? Is that a badge on the table? Oh no it is a MAPS ID card… MAPS? MAPS? Why does that sound familiar? Google it. Maybe If I, when I pulled out the phone the light. It was so bright.

 

HEY! do you mind if I turn on the light?

 

I love how she mentions my mind… The brain I really want her to touch doesn't think at all, but shortens the length of my pants.

 

it is almost ready a slow heat won’t disturb its properties!!!

 

YES! Almost done looking for the dropper and the pharmayausca. I have the Pharma.. now where is that god damn dropper I have the vail… I should have boughten one of those vials with the droppers on them. I have my bag and the case for change pre rolls. Where is that… oh yeah let me put a lot of water in my bag with a that.. there it is! my cooler for the cold drinks. Now where is that fucking… I guess she can use my head ;). I mean my finger or hers just the tip of my head ;).

 

If you want another hit the crystals or the changa or both are on the coffee table next to my ID! Well, the other one my personal one. The tea is on the counter! Drink  it while it is hot!

 

Okay, it taste like shit and this dinner table is in the way of his kitchen window… Does he pay for this? All buy him self I see three rooms. This living room looks like a man cave maybe he has others guys in here. Looking at the mirror  between his hall way i see him jump out the kitchen and look at me, then with out a word he scours for a, is he saying dropper? I think he shouldn’t juggle with priceless items… is that a mini hallway? On the door it said DREAM… To the right above that kitchen window it said happiness is an inside job with a post note saying LOVE MOM that so funny. Just like this tea it taste so bitter. I swear I almost chocked on my own vomit.

 

DRINK IT SWIFTLY… and the taste will wash away ZERO FATS! Take a spoonful of salt and vinegar, if you want take a bit more from it all than take a bite from the onion its is sweater than you think, or the lemon I left half of each if you are into the same weird stuff as me.

 

No way. This tea was good enough for me…

 

Okay! So you know it will take one hour but... YES! I found it That stupid dropper. Sorry baby you are not stupid I don’t know why I left in you the bath ub stupid shower curtain. Oh yeah decanting is a bitch. I hate stetsonia coryne… Fucking toothpick cactus spines in my thumbs… Monkeys can’t bend them and we get thorns in ours, on purpose… so smart.

 

I jumped into the hall way there she was starring at the mirror

 

If the other guys walk in… Do I. Yes I do. I am.

 

Oh shit I didn’t even notice that wow, I must be high. The time; three am.

 Still, how long has it been?

I heard this was quick it feels like hours have passed. Hmmmh, how long has it been. 

 

WAIT !

 

WHAT ! 

 

YOU DINT ASK MY NAME!

 

He came running in, even though he was a few feet away and asked what is your number?

 

Ask me what my name is first.

 

He scuffed as if it was a joke… My foot began to tap on the floor as if I was his mother training him how to ___. Wow where was I going with that incest that is weird!

 

Whats your name

 

Not with that tone you sound like your a kid who is being made to apologize and frankly it is rude!

 

I think you have been rejuvenated you are acting like a child

 

A CHILD! I am your guest. All I know is that your name is Matias and you make some potent stuff.

 

She complimented my stuff wow that sounds sexy… Is she wondering if my gun is fully loaded?

 

I am sorry what is your name

 

Why are you going high pitch? 

 

Stop analyzing me… I am not used to all this attention.

 

My name is Taylor… not swift.  Although I am quick but not easy…

 

Did that cum out as sexy as I think it did… Am I thinking out loud or mumbling like him… did I smoke too much it was only one hit. WTF is DMT… Do I sound like a whore fuck this is so hot.

 

I can me riding him right there on his what he has candles? I love candles that is why it smells so nice in here this E feels fucking amazing… I am usually this horny, but I can feel my pussy getting wet right now. 

 

I am so glad I went for it and slid my hand up his shirt and felt those chiseled skinny abs it like more than that… slim but sturdy… I bet he can ride my like stead. When we were dancing I swear I felt his hard.

 

Hello? are you there?

 

Yes! yes… um… Hi.

 

Hi taylor I said I love the name and who is swift?

 

I looked around all I could see was a Sublime and Bob Marly records and Science on the walls… Literally hand writing on the wall with equations and math I have never seen before.

 

Um this singer… Usually people ask me if… What ever… so... By the way I just turned eighteen; last Thirteenth.

 

Twelve before Christmas, a whole hanukah ago.

 

Fuck… hanukah is like fifteen? Oh think I know… its fourteen days right? She is going to think I am anti-Semitic or something.

 

Well you are clearly not Jewish. It is the twenty six now.

 

You are "write". I dont believe in religon I am even making up one called Puricisim. I put it online every one is god and if we all agree on a piece it exist on our online bible. I am fully in charge of the chemistry section. We vote by knowledge, "i" kicked all of their asses. You question and if they can’t answer you win but if the answer is given then all member review both the question and the answer. It is kind of cool it has really taken off.

 

Dried as a prune… I don’t know I like him But I just want to make him shut up with my cunt in his mouth.. Matias, Matias, Matias… I can call out that name. Is it spanish or something. Oh i hate rugs but I love that its black… is it soft and great placement right under the dark wood their it is… I remember feeling that bulge longer but thinner than I expected. His ID said 5’9 his cock say’s seven and a half feet, I mean inches. Why am I looking at his ID? I mean I was… wow that shit was potent the molly by it self did not feel like this plus I was coming down off it.

 

Are you ready for a voyage into your soul! I think one ml of this is good enough for a light trip if you want a full ride I suggest five BUT that is because you are a first timer I tripped last weak so I will take fifteen so If I start talking gibberish just let it ride out.

 

Okay? I got concerned again… Is he going to start mumbling or will his tung fail to spell out the letters that make out words.

 

 You look concerned you are crinkling those brows of yours. LSD is very potent its not something you can do half fast.

 

No I am fine… It is not that okay.

 

okay, is she ready for this should we smoke the bass before or during fuck it…

 

I got the dropper loaded 

 

Wow, this is intense I haven’t even turned on the lights yet and I feel like oh wait its the kitchen light behind him…

 

Yeah, I took out my tung waiting for the doors to start playing break on through.

 

She so hot, don’t start… oh fuck I am seeing it her bent over my bed how old is she again… Just don’t ask.

 

As 10 drops hit her’s dripped down to her lip I couldn’t hold my self back and I wanted to lick her.

 

WTF are you doing with your tung out… I am taking the drops?

 

UM, High nothing… I swear.

 

Do you want to smoke this?

 

The LSD?

 

NO, no… that on my kitchen table I just made some sodium nitrate…

 

With my bong you are the distiller!

 

What? Dude how does this kid have so many drugs… Then I looked around and thought oh yea… he’s a chemist.

 

It’s a GASS! 

 

he started laughing… I didn’t get it? 

 

Excuse me I think that is powder?

 

 

No, no… Laughing gas… it is a play on words. Sir Humphry Davy made laughing gas, some say he preferred it over alcohol. 

 

 

The egg that fell of the wall wow this is tasteless? I can’t stop sucking on the roof of my mouth.

 

 

I wish she would suck my dick and get my dick high…

 

 

What!?

 

nothing... "i" swear.

 

I don’t know if I am high… But i think i read his mind does he want to fuck?

I got three letters on my mind DTF.

 

Is he gay… again I don’t want to ruin this so be clean you got this. You’ll have fun tonight and what cum’s cum’s.

 

By the way I took organic chemistry already the bong would be the distiller.

 

No way… Did she just say that?

 

Did you just say that?

 

What?

 

Can you say again what you just said.

 

What?

 

No, no. BEFORE… before that.

 

Did I give you my number?

 

Did she?

 

Thats not what I am talking about right now. You took chem?

 

Yes, It was alright.

 

Awe, she killed it.

 

Did you enjoy it? What did you do?

 

Basic stuff and yea school is alright…

 

She killed it again… What do you want to be? What is your major?

 

Music…

 

I dig that 

 

Me too that is why I play.

 

 

 | in chapter 12.>.18 one of the chapter should be this romantic story of a chemist and a biologist when he is tripping by him self after killing the other taylor |

 

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